The Kid's Flying Solo Again...

...and I have to admit to being a wee bit heartbroken. OK, more than a wee bit.

As early as December, I'd started wondering if things were well between the spawn of my loins, Balthazar, and his girlie, whom I adore.

Around my dad's birthday, I noted Balthy had changed his Facebook profile pic. It'd been a picture of him with his gal and was now him and some musician he'd met at a concert. Hmmm...

I texted to ask if things were cool with the two of them. His answer: Yep.

The gal and I aren't FB pals, but I could see her "About" page and she still listed him as her fella. So, OK. (I know, I know; Facebook creeping should be beneath me. Well, it ain't.)

Balthazar had mentioned going to spend New Year's Eve with her and her family (they're a few states away). But as the day drew closer, he said they'd decided against him going there, after all.

Say what?

I checked Facebook and things were still OK.

Before the Kid returned to college, I bought the lovely girl some gifts for Christmas. I was so happy to shop for her, it was so much fun picking out stuff I thought would go well with her coloring...it was like shopping for the daughter I don't expect to ever have, you know? When he left, I waited on pins and needles to hear from him whether she liked the things or not. When he finally texted that she loved them, I was soooooo totally stoked! And, that he was interested in the whole thing seemed a good sign to me, at the time.

Then we spoke on the phone last Friday, about sorting out some stuff. As we were wrapping up, I asked how the gal was. He gave a monosyllabic answer (which is typical of him) but something about his tone set off my alarm bells. I asked if they were still together. He said they weren't. The long and short of it is that they'd just broken up a few hours before, and he wouldn't tell me why. I checked Facebook. The gal had changed her status to single.

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

She and I had watched loads of Buffy together! I heard the girl sing when I visited them up at school one Saturday in October! (And she's fabulous!) That same Saturday, I met a bunch of her family and we had some lunch together. Really enjoyed her mom, stepdad, and sisters! After Hurricane Sandy, her mom texted me to see how I was doing! I heart, heart, HEART THEM ALL!!!!!

HOW COULD BALTHAZAR DO THIS TO ME?!?!?!?!!!?!?!?!!!1

So, new rule: I don't even want to know about any other chicks, much less meet them, till he's engaged one's hand in marriage. And even then, I'm keeping my emotional distance. I've suffered enough heartache, I really don't need to take on any of his.

::sighs:: This breaking up shit's too hard on my poor, shattered, aging heart. For realz, yo.